I will never forget where I was the morning of 9-11-01.
I had gotten up early that morning, like I always did, and was reading in my Bible before the kids got up. The Lord had taken me to a very familiar scripture that morning…I was reading in the book ofMatthew in the 24th chapter… Where it talks about there will be wars and rumors of wars. I’d read it many times, but never did it impact me like it did at 5:00 that morning as I read it.
The Lord kept taking me back to verses six through fourteen.
Matthew 24:6 And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
Matthew 24:7 For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
Matthew 24:8 All these are the beginning of sorrows.
Matthew 24:9 Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name’s sake.
Matthew 24:10 And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
Matthew 24:11 And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
Matthew 24:12 And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.
Matthew 24:13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
Matthew 24:14 And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come. (KJV)
I read them several times and each time that I read them that particular morning I had such a sense of urgency that I don’t think I have ever felt in my lifetime or have felt again since that time.
I was still in my usual routine of reading scripture and then getting up to go pray in my bedroom but this time… The urgency was so intense that it’s as if I didn’t even walk on my feet but it was as if the Lord carried me back there to pray. I knelt down and began praying, But I was stumbling over my words… I paused for a minute to meditate on the Lord and try to hear what the Lord was trying to tell me. He again took me back to the scripture that I had just read… And the urgency again came back and I began praying….but this time it’s as if the Holy Spirit was speaking through me. I felt so unworthy to even be before the Lord in prayer. The thought of being on such holy ground was overwhelming to me.
I can remember as I knelt that I began to bow lower and lower towards the floor. I continued in prayer with tears pouring. My heart was humble before the Lord and I was so deeply concerned for my loved ones that have never accepted the Lord as their Savior.
I was also very deeply concerned like I’ve never been before for our country. The urgency continued as the prayer did with each word my heart grew more and more humble… Until I was laying completely prostate on the floor still feeling unworthy to even be speaking to such a merciful Lord. I can remember that I felt like I couldn’t get low enough… If I could’ve pressed myself to the floor to be more humble before the Lord… Then I would’ve done that. I honestly don’t know how long I laid there praying and crying out to the Lord for myself and in intercession for others. I prayed until my tears were gone and I was exhausted … And I laid there prone on the floor for a while just soaking in everything the Lord had just done in me.
I then got up to fix breakfast for the kids, and we went about our normal morning routine at that point.
by 7:30 AM the kids were sitting around the kitchen table and I was teaching them as we had started our homeschooling routine. Shortly before 8 o’clock … I got a phone call asking if I had seen the news…(which I had not)
I went to the television and turned on the news only to see that an airplane had crashed into the first twin tower. At that time they were trying to figure out if it was an accident or if we were under attack and who it might be…. And then I watched in horror as shortly after that moment the second plane crashed into the second twin tower and it was seen live on the news and around the world. We knew then that it was an attack on our loved nation.
The people of our country were all in shock and horror that our country had been attacked. Back then… most all Americans truly loved our country.
I began to realize then that the Lord was preparing me for this moment early this morning as I was reading familiar scripture but this time it meant some thing a whole lot more. This time it was so personal and I didn’t even realize why until several hours later when our country was attacked.
The urgency that I have to pray has never left me as a matter of fact I pray that my loved ones have the same urgency that I do… to make sure… That their lives are 100% right with the Lord before it’s too late.
I have an urgency for our country and my love has only grown stronger.
I think before that moment… I took advantage of and didn’t appreciate the freedom that we really had in America.
Now… Here we are 19 years later fighting for the freedom of our country. Wondering… Will America ever be the same again?
God began pulling his hand of protection off of America as he is not happy with our choices.
I pray… That today as we remember the attacks of 911….that we as a nation get a sense of urgency, A humble heart, and a heart of repentance.
It is only with a true heart of repentance that the Lord will restore our great country.
For us christians… We win either way. Don’t lose hope! Either repentance will take place and our country will be restored and our liberties continue…. or… God pulls his hand completely off and judgment takes place, but we know in the end we will spend our eternity with Christ in a land where we’ll never grow old.
We Christians are not to fear judgment! For God is a righteous judge and He will never leave us nor forsake us. Sometimes… It’s us that leaves and forsakes Him, but NEVER the other way around.
What does 911 mean to you?
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